3 weeks remain before returning to film my web series "We're Just Talking" and emotions that have been long removed revisit my mental campus. With the day nearing I can feel the different turns; excitement, curiosity, frustration, confidence, and many more sentiments stand tall before this big step. Above all of these looms a sensation that, more than ever before, poses a number of challenges: fear. Fear played an integral role in my development but not under its normal pretenses. For many, fear can serve as a detractor, hindrance, even a catalyst for ignorance. Dating back to my early years, fear (directly and indirectly) functioned as inspiration to be better.
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Running around as a youth in Morrisville, I was self conscious of my teeth (I looked like Bugs Bunny with a box fade). I tried to counter my appearance by being charming and cool, because I didn't want to be picked on. When I became interested in girls, it was in the midst of dealing with my parents' separation. Too young to understand the complexities of relationships, my thoughts were that my father was a bad guy, because he left home. This resulted in me fearing that my fate would be my dad's, so I treated women what I considered "the right way". In my young adult years and even now my battles lie with the fear of being unknown and under-appreciated. My daily challenges are to make sure "they" know me; when I leave this earth, I'll know my story was told and flowers were given while I was able to smell them.
In some regards this is difficult. No matter how great our attempts, we can't control how people view you; there will be people who don't think your work is great, women who don't think you're Mr. Right (limited...just kidding), and cats who just don't respect you. Experience has taught me while we can't control our audience, we can persuade them. We make our case for greatness by pushing ourselves to give maximum effort and exemplifying the term "determination".
So how determined are you to reach your goals? Many of us can relate to looking in the mirror and not FULLY appreciating what we see. Do those same fears and concerns alter our thinking at lunch and dinner time? Do they push us to get off Instagram and get on the treadmill, bench, or ab machine? While it sounds arrogant, it is a call to action that WE all must give ourselves to be great; without it we succumb to stagnancy. Accepting your circumstances is a negative form of fear, a disguise masking the apprehensiveness of challenging ourselves. Accepting our physical appearance is just one form of this fear; being too comfortable extends to our careers and even our relationships. Tests and circumstances such as job offers or a potential beau are presented to us as opportunities to grow, and accepting these things in our lives are difficult but give us a chance to improve our lives.
Friends, I challenge you to challenge yourself. There is a situation in your life that needs tending to and you can do it. You owe it to yourself; others will be impacted and may even benefit from your decision, but it's for YOU. The feeling of accomplishing these tasks is second to none. While the fear of failure often looms large, it pales to the fantastic feeling of FLYING.
Ceddy P
Be sure to tune in for the return of "We're Just Talking", coming this spring!
Cedric Perry is a producer, blogger, and author of the novels “In Line for Love” and “Homecoming”. Currently he produces the web sitcom “We’re Just Talking” and hosts “Pick 6″, a talk show which discusses everyday issues, highlighting how to successfully maneuver through them. For more, follow him on twitter at @chrisbrown_skin and check out his blog at www.cedsconfessions.com.
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